It was a good day at church. I've started going to both morning services since I can't go to Sunday evening service. I'm consumed by the love of worship lately. It's amazing how just a short amount of time can change how you react to the Spirit and the same songs.
First service: The songs were all happy songs. Nothing deep or moving per se, just happy. And yet I cried. No. I bawled. I wanted to rejoice and be glad but my heart hurt. I tried to hold back but I couldn't and I just sobbed. It was all I could do and it was a great release.
Second service: Same songs. Still happy. The difference was this time, I was happy too. Before we started worshiping, I had every intention of crying again. I thought thats what I wanted. In fact, it IS what I wanted, its just not what God wanted of me. There were still tears but they came from happiness.
I LOVE how God can change a heart so quickly. I'm still in somewhat of a funk but I'm not worried about it. I know I'll come through it and see the other side. I just hope that I can stay focused while I am in the valley and not give way to over reacting.
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